if you could change one thing about yourself...

i used to love those online quizzes.  what kind of dog are you?  what color best describes your personality? are you an introvert?  if you could be one famous person who would you be?  


i loved those types of questions and quizzes.  weirdo.


anyways, lately ive been noticing a stark difference between jonathan and my lifestyles.  it's not that one is better or worse, we're just different.  and honestly i wish i was more like him with this one.


my morning starts by waking up to an alarm - i hate it - i get out of bed, wash my face, put on some deoderant, watch the pup (aka run after her when there is silence to avoid a big plop of poo on the floor), get dressed, scarf down breakfast, take the pup out, and run to the car.  i speed to work (only 5 over, don't stress).  


my day at work, especially right now with camp starting monday, is super busy.  i jog from my office to the copy room probably 50 times a day (not exaggerating).  i have to-do lists spewing from all corners of my desk.  my office is a wreck.  work is crazy busy - but i love that.  i hate being bored.


then i come home.  and this is where jonathan and i differ.  he too rushes in the morning.  he too is busy at work.  but when he comes home, he stops.  he slows down.  he does what is relaxing to him.


the other night when i was racing from room to room doing odds and ends, i noticed jonathan wasnt.  he was just watching something on the history channel - snore.  he wasn't being lazy, he was just stopping for the day.  he kept looking at me as if to say "what is chasing you?"


i don't stop.  everything's a race.  even supper is a race.  it's like i've got a time frame set for everything i do and if it doesn't get done by the time decided by my rat race mind, it's a disaster.


so this is my answer.  the question is if you could change one thing about yourself what would it be.  i want to slow down.  i want to stop.  i want to be calm.  i want to stop running when i don't have to.  i want to stop having a clock ticking in my mind for everything.  i want to relax.  just like jonathan.  and Jesus did that too - so i'm going to pray for that.


what about you?  what do you want to change?  all two of you who read this, post a comment and i'll love you.  or don't.  i'm going to stop and go watch tv...while i think of 100 things i could be doing.  jk. kind of.


goodnight